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Night Owl

I’ve always stayed up late, I guess I’m just wired that way. I have one of those brains that, no matter how exhausted I am, somewhere around 9 PM my mind starts to kick in, and by 11 o’clock I’m operating at full capacity with ease. Even if I’m exhausted, the later it gets the more cranked up I become. I may be sleep deprived and on my 3rd day with less than 6 hours a night, but at midnight I’m jacked.

When I wake up in the morning on days I work in the ER, I think “Why do you keep doing this?” because I feel  wiped as soon as I get up. All day at work I’m OK, but I know I’m not anywhere close to even 80%. Slowly but surely, however, I start to pick up steam as the day turns into night. And then: Boom! By 11 PM I’m operating at full speed. Going to bed is the last thing on my mind – I’ve got shit to do! Probably not the best thing for productivity, but there you go. I am what I am…