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One Hundred Posts

This marks my 100th consecutive post, and as such, I want to take a moment to step back and look at what I am doing here. What has this experiment taught me? Well, first of all, it has taught me to be disciplined enough to post something for 100 days straight – no insignificant feat. I have tried to say something meaningful in each one, some more successfully than others, but hey, in order to succeed you have to be willing to fail.

It has forced me to think and write my thoughts down in a coherent fashion. Sometimes this is harder than it seems – I will write something, preview it, and then either edit or expound on my thoughts. Sometimes they are short and very stream of consciousness, in other posts I have spent time really trying to develop an idea. There have been situations where I found myself in the bathroom of my ER at the end of a 12 and a half hour shift with multiple deaths and my brain is just fried and yet I have to dig deep and post something. I have also started posts and then not published them, because…

I have had to think hard about what I am willing to explore here. There are things I have written that I’m not sure I want to share publicly (even though I am assuming no one is really reading this). This idea of what topics to write about is an ongoing process – I am still growing here. This blog is an act of self-actualization that is in a state of development. I am trying to learn and grow as a human by doing this…

Finally, this project was (and still is), something I am doing for myself, but clearly I have written it in a way that is directed at the reader. Who do I think that reader is? Is it me? Or do I think that someone, maybe a few people, will actually read this? I’m not quite sure… I do know that sometimes I will go back and read things I’ve written and find it interesting. Here’s one of the fun things about creating stuff – after a certain amount of time passes, you can go back and look at things you have done and wonder: Did I really do that? I guess I’m capable of more than I sometimes give myself credit for