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Observation

I am approaching six months of writing an entry to this blog daily, without missing a day, and I have a few observations. First of all, this is not difficult. Before I started this I thought “How will I ever think of something new to write about every day?” But the reality is, I don’t think about what I am going to write about before I do it – so it turns into this stream-of-consciousness exercise that calls a lot of different mental processes into play.

If you write with no premeditation, it becomes a tiny snapshot of whatever is going on in your mind at that moment. Maybe it’s a quarter to midnight and I have to write something – I could be in the bathroom of my ER at the end of a 12 hour shift. I open WordPress on my iPhone and just start. It doesn’t have to be great (or even good), but it has to be a thought or an idea that I express coherently with words (it could also be a photo I’ve taken). Even though this process is pretty quick, it forces my mind to think and create something immediately – and when you do that every day, it’s just like exercising a muscle – except in this case, the muscle is your brain. So I feel like this is actually making me smarter – my brain just seems more alert and active.

When I started this, in the very first post, I wrote that I wasn’t really doing this for anyone other that myself. I hoped it might be useful for someone else, but ultimately I was just doing it for me – I hoped to grow as a person and become more fully realized in my humanity. Well, it certainly seems to be accomplishing that. Something is happening, and I like it.